i just have to remember no matter how hard life is, it will all be worth it. it has to be. and in all reality.. it’s NOT that hard. i have it pretty good. except for the constantly overthinking and obsessing and being anxious about stuff that i can’t control so why even bother?
i just really want a full time job. i’m seriously considering taking all online and night classes next year in order to get a full time job. it would make paying bills so much easier and once i do have to get a car i want it to be a reliable at least semi nice looking one.. and that means a car payment.
all i want to do is graduate.. but i know once i do all i’m gonna wanna do is go back to school. because the real worlds scary and if i don’t have school to piss me off then something else will.. student loans. fuckkkk